Friday January 24, 2003

Today SUCKED

Today SUCKED. I know I say that a lot, but today I really mean it. I feel physically sick, I feel emotionally sick (sort of), and everything just sucks. The source of my physical sickness is easy to pin down, I think. Last night Sarah came over, and we had a very, very late dinner (think 11:30). She slept over, and we were both feeling ill this morning. A few pills and I'll be fine. But the reason I feel emotionally sick, I can't really say. Everything is going wrong right now. I don't know why. My creativity has (at least temporarily) escaped me, and I can't paint, can't draw, can't do much of anything. And my classes are already pissing me off and depriving me of my life. I just want to crawl into bed and hibernate until this school year is over.

The only good thing that happened to me this week is a conversation I had with a friend of mine. It wasn't really a conversation between the two of us... it was something she mentioned in class while we were having a "philosophical" discussion. She told everyone of a personal experience she had a couple of years ago during the summer. She was feeling kinda bummed because she had a decision to make that could have some nasty consequences. So she prayed. And after a few days of prayer she saw a light on the wall, and the face of Jesus emerged from the light. It was an I'm here, don't worry kind of sign that helped her through her difficult time. I'm really glad she told us about that. It was the highlight of my week. Of my year, really.